My
Life from four years ago to 2013
(Part Two)
2012
is the year when “ish” get's real! (see I can be funny!)
The
beginning of the year was a little strange, yet fun! I'm now at this
time seeing a “shrink” in which diagnosed me with PTSD
(PostTruamatic Stress disorder). (because at the time it was like
pulling teeth trying to get me in the car.) and Depression.
For
the most I would do my school work, then get back in the bed and not
think about anything just try to go to sleep.
For
about 4-6 months that's how my life was. I didn't really have a great
relationship with someone (too personal) because they seemed like
they didn't understand who I was at this point. I would have walk in
front of a moving train if there were any around. It was that bad. So
for the most part I would just go to sleep most of the time. I was
miserable. In that time I developed bi polar disorder and an eating
disorder (before all of this craziness I would eat very little and
exercise a lot. To the point where I would get sick.)
This
is the point where things change a for the better.
Around
the third week of August, My mom was trying to find away for me to
get out of the house and be around people.
My
family and I have been going to this church for about 5 years (well
just my siblings and my mother.) but I never went to the youth
classes. (Too scared)
So
nervous and all, I go. Best thing that's ever happened to me. That
night, there was something special going on just for women at some
hotel. So the church was pretty empty! It was just the youth pastor
and some other kids. They were having a movie night instead of a
church service (don't really remember the movie so...)
When
the movie was over my mom picked me and my sister up she came with
me.
That
night I felt happier than ever! For two reasons!
1:
I had a lot of fun
2:
I met someone cool! (turns out the guy was a douche.)
I'm
going to skip some of the story ( just because I don't want to relive
that horrible friendship I had.)
Around
Christmas time life was so good! I had real friends, the leaders were
awesome and I had no depression what so ever! my anxiety even went
down! Everything was sooo good! Until food started to bother me.
Around
the time of November and December I thought I had Celiac Disease.
Once
I started the gluten free diet, I was ok for a while and I thought
that was it. So my life started to be great again!
Four
months later I by some coffee from my local coffee shop. I was
getting ready to start a new volunteer job at my church! While I'm
getting ready for my new job, I get this weird feeling in my stomach.
I start thinking “Did I have something with gluten in it? What
the hell is going on?!?!
What
I did next was just so generous! I decide to ignore it and get ready
for the job. (so smart)
While
I'm in the bathroom I get this weird urge to throw-up (which I did.)
It
was horrible, all through the night I was sick.
About
two months later, I have to get two blood tests. One for Celiac and
one for Crohn's. About four days later, I get the results. Negative
for Celiac and positive for Crohn's disease.
I'm
at this point angry and I feel so defeated. I'm angry at God thinking
why and how could you let this happen?!
That
night I prayed so hard and I the last thing I remember saying to God
in tears was “ Please don't let me die!”
My
life felt like a downward spiral once more. But this time, it's not
as bad, because I was surrounded by people who really cared about me.
For the first time I actually felt really loved from people other
than my family!
In
the month of June I go in for my very first Endoscopy and
Colonoscopy. (celebrate go times.)
The
week after, I graduated from High School! (praise the Lord I got out
of that hell hole.)
The
next week after that was when I got the results from both procedures!
My
Doctor told me I have absolutely NO CROHN'S DISEASE!!
Turns
out it was just gastritis and ulcers.
I
told everybody I knew! I was so happy! The doctor put me omeprazole,
and it started working withing a week!
Over
joyed with happiness, I ate everything!! Then stuff started not to
work so well.
After
the follow up I had with my Doctor, She doubled the dosage from 20mg
to 40mg. It still didn't work.
After
I was put on about two different other medications I was just about
fed up!!
In
the mean time, I'm having crazy acid reflux, and one my guy friends
is accusing me of horrible things. It was a crazy time.
Within
the next two weeks, he leave for good! (he moves away) out of sight,
out of mind. I didn't need people like him in my life.
This
is where life get's so much better!
About
three weeks ago, my mother and I go the this vitamin store to get the
natural sweetener called stevia. And while we're there, we see the
girl with her mom buying supplements for her digestion.
I
ask the sales woman what exactly did she give that girl? And she told
me Multi Enzymes, DgL, licorice and activated Charcoal . I'm slightly
apprehensive about these supplements because I've never used them
before. So before I buy them, I go home and do some research on them.
Turns out that's what my body needed all along!
The
next weekend I go back to the vitamin Store, and buy the supplements.
(except the Activated Charcoal because it such up everything in you
stomach including a p.p.i.)
That
day, was the first day I was able to eat real food! I took the DgL
licorice first and it worked within 15-30 minutes for me! And the
Multi Enzymes work the next day!
I
had no problems for a while! The only time I say I have is if I eat
something wrong (let's say pizza) that's when I'll get a little
indigestion but nothing serious.
Now
My life is so much better! I'm dancing again, I'm eating again, and
my faith is stronger than ever! I'm now looking forward to what God
has in store for my life.
Remember
everyone, “there is no testimony without a test.)
God's
not finished with me, not even close, but along the way I'm going to
tell my story and help people with it.
...The
story doesn't stop here......
PART
THREE OF MY STORY TOMORROW.
