Merry Christmas!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!


Hope very one has a fun and amazing Christmas that's filled with long lasting memorize that will last a lifetime!!!!


I'll be back day after Christmas with a skin/haircare haul or a book haul!!


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Coming Clean....

HEY EVERYONE,

So, I had this amazing blog slash haul I was going to do today. But I got really sick yesterday and today I stayed in bed most of the day. So right now, I'm just lying in bed talking to you guys.

The reason I'm sick is because I have overly worked myself to the point where I'm sleeping all over the place, I'm dizzy and weak, and I have horrible headaches. I just went to the doctor (two infact.) and was just recently diagnosed with another illness. I might tell you guys later on, but not now.  Right now, I'm going to focus on getting better this whole weekend.

  I hope everyone is enjoying their winter break if it's started. mine won't start until the week of Christmas! I'm suppose to be studying for my finals right now. but I don't really feel like it. frankly righting this post is a bit tiring.

hopefully next week things get better.

TTYL,
 KENNEDY M.

What would youlike for me to review??

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Tomorrow's blog post!

 HEY EVERYONE!

I'm sick today, so the post that I was going to put up today will be posted tomorrow! PLEASE FOLLOW! :)

HAPPY HOLIDAY'S 

BOOK ANNOUNCEMENT FOR WATTPAD

HELLO LOVELY  PEOPLE ,

I here to announce that my next book will be on wattpad! (  FREE.)

 It's basically about this 18 year girl that's gone her whole life as an ugly duckling and in her life. she's never felt pretty yet alone beautiful. In her second year of college she wanted to re-invent herself and  find out what makes her feel good about herself, and intern makes her  sexy.

 The book will be called " I just wanna be Sexy."

 The first t chapter will be posted new years week. (date not determined.)

Follow me on google + and wattpad for more info

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NEW POLL!!!

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!!! thehappinessproject714.

E.L.F HAUL!!!!

As promised, here's a haul of  my favorite elf product.......




This is the Elf Studio Precision Liquid Eyeliner.

I love this particular eye liner mainly because of the brush and how smooth it goes on my eye. I wouldn't use this eye liner unless you're really good at using liquid eye liner. all and all I rate this an A+

       

 Next we have the E.L.F Studio Moisturizing Lipstick. I bought in color Ravishing Rose #8263.
 Best lipstick I've every bought. Definitely will buy more of this lipstick in the future. It's very moisturizing and stays on for hours. I just went to a play and never had to re-apply. A+++ 

                                                                              


















Lastly, I bought The E.L.F Studio 3 in 1 Mascara. I didn't really see much of a difference in my lashes.To me it's just really good mascara. It lengthened better than Volumized. (I just made a word.) But all in all, I like it. B+  








                                                   

Get Ready!!

The Elf Haul will be up tomorrow.

FOUND MY CAMERA!!!! (E.L.F HAUL TODAY.)

I found my camera so look for my e.l.f  haul that will be up tonight!!

A blog I love!

Everyone,

 you must follow "Beauty Crush." on youtube!! I absolutely love her style and her vlogs are amazing.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCooQN8b9yPeNQgUFa9S5xew

Fun Questions!!!!!!!!!

If you could choice a theme song for your life, what song would it be?

 Bonus Question:  If your life was a book, what would you name it?

Tomorrow!

Hey everyone!

Look for a "Ten Things About Me." post which will be up before 6 o'clock tomorrow night!

TTYL,
 Kennedy #30to20

I'm on Wattpad!!!!!!!!!!!!

 This has nothing to do with books or, health or Fashion  sadness within. I'm posting tell you all that I have created a WATTPAD!!!!!!!!!!! I'm in the process of writing a series for WATTPAD SO IF YOU OR IF YOU KNOW ANYONE THAT HAS ONE PLEASE FOLLOW!!!!!!!

 WATTPAD NAME (Dancingriverbird20.) I have two holiday books already published but I will have a regular series up soon..

HI HI HI HI HI HI!!!!!!! (BACK HOME.)

• The reason why their was no "therapy session" last Friday was because I was getting ready to go camping for 3-4 days. It was the most life changing experience, and I do recommend it for everyone!
• I went with my church family and sister. I have never felt the presents of God so closely before in my life! I loved it! I'm so glad the very first time I ever went camping was with them. Plus I have a new daddy/daughter relationship with God. It's like, whenever your earthly father has hurt you in any way, God is the Dad that can take care of you and give you that protection and security that you've always wanted.
• I will definitely tell you more about it tomorrow.
• LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU ALL,
• -K

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL (Must Read.)

Everyday is a struggle looking and seeing something about my body I don’t like (My stomach, my thighs, arms etc.)

  Dealing with Bipolar disorder and Bulimia, I hear the voice of torment all the time telling me “You’re not not good enough,” “You’re ugly,” “You’re Fat,” and it goes on and on!

  If you ever hear those voice, I’m here to tell you that THEY’RE ALL LIES!! you are beautiful, strong powerful, creative, innovative, smart, and more than Enough.

  You are more than Your body, you are more than the meds you have to take everyday, more than your face, your looks.

  You are a lovely person with thoughts and Idea’s, hopes and dreams that are just waiting for you to walk with them, not just chase them.
Proverbs 3:15 says: “She is more precious than Rubies, nothing you desire compares to her.”

  Proverbs 31:25 says- “She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.”

 Don’t ever be ashamed of who you are! You are you and you’re here for a reason. It might seem scary, but trust me, we are on this planet for a reason, it will be slowly reveled to us if we KEEP LIVING!

  So next time you hear that voice in your head telling you all those horrible things about your weight, your looks, etc. Remember you are the Daughter of a King. Not just any King. The King of Kings and you are loved and valued by him more than you could ever imagine.
Have a great Sunday Lovelies,
-K

My Story pt.2

My Life from four years ago to 2013

(Part Two)

2012 is the year when “ish” get's real! (see I can be funny!)

The beginning of the year was a little strange, yet fun! I'm now at this time seeing a “shrink” in which diagnosed me with PTSD (PostTruamatic Stress disorder). (because at the time it was like pulling teeth trying to get me in the car.) and Depression.

For the most I would do my school work, then get back in the bed and not think about anything just try to go to sleep.

For about 4-6 months that's how my life was. I didn't really have a great relationship with someone (too personal) because they seemed like they didn't understand who I was at this point. I would have walk in front of a moving train if there were any around. It was that bad. So for the most part I would just go to sleep most of the time. I was miserable. In that time I developed bi polar disorder and an eating disorder (before all of this craziness I would eat very little and exercise a lot. To the point where I would get sick.)

This is the point where things change a for the better.

Around the third week of August, My mom was trying to find away for me to get out of the house and be around people.

My family and I have been going to this church for about 5 years (well just my siblings and my mother.) but I never went to the youth classes. (Too scared)

So nervous and all, I go. Best thing that's ever happened to me. That night, there was something special going on just for women at some hotel. So the church was pretty empty! It was just the youth pastor and some other kids. They were having a movie night instead of a church service (don't really remember the movie so...)

When the movie was over my mom picked me and my sister up she came with me.

That night I felt happier than ever! For two reasons!

1: I had a lot of fun

2: I met someone cool! (turns out the guy was a douche.)

I'm going to skip some of the story ( just because I don't want to relive that horrible friendship I had.)

Around Christmas time life was so good! I had real friends, the leaders were awesome and I had no depression what so ever! my anxiety even went down! Everything was sooo good! Until food started to bother me.

Around the time of November and December I thought I had Celiac Disease.

Once I started the gluten free diet, I was ok for a while and I thought that was it. So my life started to be great again!

Four months later I by some coffee from my local coffee shop. I was getting ready to start a new volunteer job at my church! While I'm getting ready for my new job, I get this weird feeling in my stomach. I start thinking “Did I have something with gluten in it? What the hell is going on?!?!

What I did next was just so generous! I decide to ignore it and get ready for the job. (so smart)

While I'm in the bathroom I get this weird urge to throw-up (which I did.)

It was horrible, all through the night I was sick.

About two months later, I have to get two blood tests. One for Celiac and one for Crohn's. About four days later, I get the results. Negative for Celiac and positive for Crohn's disease.

I'm at this point angry and I feel so defeated. I'm angry at God thinking why and how could you let this happen?!

That night I prayed so hard and I the last thing I remember saying to God in tears was “ Please don't let me die!”

My life felt like a downward spiral once more. But this time, it's not as bad, because I was surrounded by people who really cared about me. For the first time I actually felt really loved from people other than my family!

In the month of June I go in for my very first Endoscopy and Colonoscopy. (celebrate go times.)

The week after, I graduated from High School! (praise the Lord I got out of that hell hole.)

The next week after that was when I got the results from both procedures!

My Doctor told me I have absolutely NO CROHN'S DISEASE!!

Turns out it was just gastritis and ulcers.

I told everybody I knew! I was so happy! The doctor put me omeprazole, and it started working withing a week!

Over joyed with happiness, I ate everything!! Then stuff started not to work so well.

After the follow up I had with my Doctor, She doubled the dosage from 20mg to 40mg. It still didn't work.

After I was put on about two different other medications I was just about fed up!!

In the mean time, I'm having crazy acid reflux, and one my guy friends is accusing me of horrible things. It was a crazy time.

Within the next two weeks, he leave for good! (he moves away) out of sight, out of mind. I didn't need people like him in my life.

This is where life get's so much better!

About three weeks ago, my mother and I go the this vitamin store to get the natural sweetener called stevia. And while we're there, we see the girl with her mom buying supplements for her digestion.

I ask the sales woman what exactly did she give that girl? And she told me Multi Enzymes, DgL, licorice and activated Charcoal . I'm slightly apprehensive about these supplements because I've never used them before. So before I buy them, I go home and do some research on them. Turns out that's what my body needed all along!

The next weekend I go back to the vitamin Store, and buy the supplements. (except the Activated Charcoal because it such up everything in you stomach including a p.p.i.)

That day, was the first day I was able to eat real food! I took the DgL licorice first and it worked within 15-30 minutes for me! And the Multi Enzymes work the next day!

I had no problems for a while! The only time I say I have is if I eat something wrong (let's say pizza) that's when I'll get a little indigestion but nothing serious.

Now My life is so much better! I'm dancing again, I'm eating again, and my faith is stronger than ever! I'm now looking forward to what God has in store for my life.

Remember everyone, “there is no testimony without a test.)

God's not finished with me, not even close, but along the way I'm going to tell my story and help people with it.

...The story doesn't stop here......

PART THREE OF MY STORY TOMORROW.

My story pt.1

My life from four years ago to 2013

   For years all I wanted to be was a dancer. After school, I would practice for hours and hours on end. It was hard work but I still enjoyed every minute of it. (so I thought.)

   One day, I looked in the mirror and absolutely did not like what I saw. I thought I was too big to be a dancer, (which is a horrible thought because no matter what size you are if you love dancing then that is what your are.. a dancer!) I became so terrified at what I thought others would think or say about me. (which is stupid!)

  The next time I go to dance practice, I try to get the mean thoughts about my self out of my head and try to focus in class. It's cross the floor time and I'm about to do a “grand jete” (for some people who don't know what that is, it's sort of like a leap across the floor.) that was the day I tore my Hamstring and lost all self confidence.

   The Year 2011, I feel healthy enough to go back to dance class. just for fun this time. I was super competitive and I wasn't even competing in any big competitions.

   On my way back to class, that cold Wednesday night, I get this weird feeling in my head. I just brush it off like it was nothing and continue doing whatever I was doing I don't remember. Then, I feel it again. This time I know something wrong! My heart starts pounding like a drummer in a rock band in my chest! My body is cold, my head is spinning, I can't breath. Then all of a sudden, I pass out in the back seat of my mom's car.

  When I open my eyes, I'm still in the car, still feeling as crazy as ever!

   Finally my mom pulls into a target parking lot and calls 9.1.1

When the paramedics arrive they asked me all these questions: name, birthday. Phone number etc.

   They knew exactly what had happened. I had a panic attack!!

   At the time I had no idea what a panic attack was, let alone that I had anxiety! That was the first time anything like that had ever happened to me. I thought I was having a heart attack! It was all so scary.

   The next week I'm still dealing with these crazy anxiety attacks. They weren't as bad as they were the first time but they were still very strong.

   From that point on, dancing was never the same. I felt like my purpose in life was shattered, I couldn't pay attention in class anymore (seriously, when ever the choreographer was talking she would start to sound like the teacher in those charlie brown cartoons.) I got to the point where my life was a downward spiral and I needed a break so I stopped everything until year 2012.

My new blog! (From tumblr to blogger.)

Hey Lovelies!

 It's K from Tumblr. This blog is just an extention to my blog on on tumblr -http://happinessisadancefloor.tumblr.com/


  Basically the same post from tumblr will be on this blog for those who don't have a tumblr. However, the comments will be closed on this blog. My blogs are a place for people to be encouraged and feel good about themselves, and I don't want some horrible meanie saying things to people (or me.) to crush thier spirits or sadden them. NOPE NOT HERE. SO BE  NICE OR DON'T FOLLOW AT ALL!

  I will definitely have things that make me happy on here(i.e clothes, make-up, hair product etc..) but I will not go away from the purpose of this blog. TO MAKE YOU HAPPY ^_^

Hope you guys have a great rest of the summer,
-K