OFFICIAL RELEASE DATE (Letters to Myself : The Extended Edition.)

 The Pre-order date is scheduled for OCTOBER 19Th 2015

 The official release date is OCTOBER 23rd 2015!!!!!

Brownies VS. Rice Crispy Treats (COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS.) Post 8.

FUN POST TIME!

I've been trying to think of a really good treat that I can have at my house for the holidays. I know I'm getting read to bring home a huge bowl of banana Pudding but I want to make something. SOOOOO, I'm in between Brownies or Rice Crispy Treats!


 Brownies because; chocolate. Just Chocolate. There's really no need to explain why.


Rice Crispy Treats because I just love them!!! I was making them since childhood and it's kind of a tradition that my family have.


 So tell me what you think I should do. Should I make brownies or rice crispy treats, or BOTH!

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Bittersweet Final Day. Holday's have begun. (COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS.) Post.7

School is officially over,

 It ended on a high note though. I had the strongest performance I've ever had in that class. I guess now I can truly say that Theatre will actually be my major. I feel more comfortable acting then I do dancing and for some reason it feel more natural.

 After the day was over, Some of kind of lingered around the school for awhile and conversed. then we left;  Some had more finals, I had to leave.

 My feelings right now are bitter sweet. It was a challenging semester, but I loved every moment of it and if I had the chance to rewind and do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing.


 But now I can say my winter break has officially started which means, cooking, Holiday movie watching, and Grandma making the Banana Pudding !  I swear to you, the holiday's are not the holiday's until my Grandmother makes the banana pudding.  It's the most delicious dish I will ever eat on Christmas (this time Christmas Eve.)


 I hope everyone is having an amazing holiday! 

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P.S. sorry for the late post, the one for today will be up later today! (thank for reading)

Starting Youtube and Booktube? COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS :Post 4.

I've been thinking,


I really want to start Youtube. Even though I hear sometimes the comments aren't so nice and vlogging takes alot of work, it just seems so much fun! I mean not working for medical reasons, I am in school but only on curtain days; I'm thinking I have plenty of time to start a Youtube channel.

 I would talk about mostly make-up, fashion and books. Would I have to open a separate channel for books? Or could I just make a playlist?

 Do you think starting youtube is a great idea? follow and leave a comment. :)

New Book, Wattpad. COUNTDOWN TO CHRISTMAS!! Post 3.

Today was a rather slow day.


I just stayed home most of the day, then I got bored so I went to the library and rented some movies: Game of Thrones, Paul Blart Mall cop, and the Help.


 I'm writing the first chapter of  the book I'm putting on wattpad! I did change the name and I can now show you all  the cover of the book.

 The book will be on wattpad starting New Years Day! but I will put some excerpts on my website on wordpress http://kmbooks20.wordpress.com/

For more info follow me here and on google +

Hey Everyone 12-14-14

Sitting down working on Tuesday's Haul!!

How's everyone's holiday going? Going to any Christmas parties? I've so far gone to one but there's one coming up this Friday and I think Sunday.

  Well, can't talk long so I'll will come back some time tomorrow.  It's finals week and I do have to study but I will have that Haul up on Tuesday.

TTYL,

 Kennedy M.

#party idea haul

FEELING MUCH BETTER!! GET READY FOR CHRISTMAS PARTY IDEA HAUL ON TUESDAY!!!!!!!


Can't wait for you all to see it!!!!!

Coming Clean....

HEY EVERYONE,

So, I had this amazing blog slash haul I was going to do today. But I got really sick yesterday and today I stayed in bed most of the day. So right now, I'm just lying in bed talking to you guys.

The reason I'm sick is because I have overly worked myself to the point where I'm sleeping all over the place, I'm dizzy and weak, and I have horrible headaches. I just went to the doctor (two infact.) and was just recently diagnosed with another illness. I might tell you guys later on, but not now.  Right now, I'm going to focus on getting better this whole weekend.

  I hope everyone is enjoying their winter break if it's started. mine won't start until the week of Christmas! I'm suppose to be studying for my finals right now. but I don't really feel like it. frankly righting this post is a bit tiring.

hopefully next week things get better.

TTYL,
 KENNEDY M.

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Tomorrow's blog post!

 HEY EVERYONE!

I'm sick today, so the post that I was going to put up today will be posted tomorrow! PLEASE FOLLOW! :)

HAPPY HOLIDAY'S 

BOOK ANNOUNCEMENT FOR WATTPAD

HELLO LOVELY  PEOPLE ,

I here to announce that my next book will be on wattpad! (  FREE.)

 It's basically about this 18 year girl that's gone her whole life as an ugly duckling and in her life. she's never felt pretty yet alone beautiful. In her second year of college she wanted to re-invent herself and  find out what makes her feel good about herself, and intern makes her  sexy.

 The book will be called " I just wanna be Sexy."

 The first t chapter will be posted new years week. (date not determined.)

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I WANNA BE SEXY!!!!!!!

 For two years of my Adult life I've always felt like the ugly one.  Even though I would hear " You're so pretty." or " You're Beautiful." from people ( and not just my family.) I still feel gross in my own skin. I mean sure there are things  I like about me, I'm a writer, I'm pretty good at acting, and I can make pretty awesome food. But I don't like me as a whole.

 The crazy thing about it is that there's a guy in my life now that I actually want to date.  (So Tall and Handsome as hell! -Taylor Swift)  Yet whenever he looks at me I become so self-conscious.  I really like him, but I'm not sure if I like myself enough be in a relationship with him.  Why? Because I will most likely always be looking to him for validation.Always looking for him to say I'm sexy or I'm pretty, and that's how  a co-dependent relationship happens.


So one day I was sitting in my room watching youtube and I came across this video by Ana Akana named ""Am I Sexy?" and basically she said everything that was going on in my head.  She gave herself a year and half to find what makes her sexy to her.

That inspired me find out what makes me feel sexy to myself. So starting in January I will give myself six months to feeling sexy. whether that means working out three days out of a week, or wearing sexy underwear, or taking dance classes (again just for fun.) I'm doing it! and hopefully by that time I will feel  much better about myself. and who knows maybe I'll write a book about it in journal form. (wink wink.) we shall see....... To follow me in my "journey to sexiness " follow me on google plus and this blog.  http://thehappinessproject714.blogspot.com/

 To watch the video click below.

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Fun Questions!!!!!!!!!

If you could choice a theme song for your life, what song would it be?

 Bonus Question:  If your life was a book, what would you name it?

10 THINGS ABOUT ME!

                                                    10 THINGS ABOUT ME

1.  I'LL BE 20 ON NEW YEARS EVE
2. I WROTE A BOOK CALLED THE FUNNY THING ABOUT LIFE  (AVAILABLE ON AMAZON KINDLE.)
3. I LOVE BOOKS
4. I GO TO COLLEGE
5. I HAVE A BLOG ( http://dudeshewrites.tumblr.com/ ) 
6. I HAVE A WEBSITE ( http://kmbooks20.wordpress.com/ ) 
7. I'M A THEATER MAJOR
8. I WANT TO WRITE A WEBISODE FOR YOUTUBE (wink wink)
9. I WILL BE ON GOODREADS VERY SOON! (SOMETIME IN WINTER/SPRING.)

Tomorrow!

Hey everyone!

Look for a "Ten Things About Me." post which will be up before 6 o'clock tomorrow night!

TTYL,
 Kennedy #30to20

Goodnight #30to20

Okay so, I'll be twenty in 29 days, but a few days ago, I started this hashtag #30to20.

My goal for the rest of this month, is to enjoy the last of being a "teen" before I step into the awesome world in which I would like to call my twenties.

Well, that is all for tonight.

TTYL,
 Kennedy

( P.S. my book is on sale right now on amazon for kindle. check it out.)

The Happiness Project blog (Not to be confused with the book.)

Hello lovely people,


  While I was surfing the web, I came across a book that had the same title as my blog! My blog is mostly about what makes me happy and sometimes I give health advice and write encouraging posts for women/girls. Just to make it clear, I have never heard of this book until today, just a few hours ago. Her book is more about how to be happier, and my blog is about what makes me happy.

   I don't really want to change the name of the blog, this blog used to have a different name, but since I quite dancing, I felt like "The Happiness Project." would be a better fit for me.

 Blogging is one of those things that bring me joy, one day I want to take it to you-tube. I probably would have to change the name but right now, this blog name is here to stay.


Thanks,
-K

My Story pt.2

My Life from four years ago to 2013

(Part Two)

2012 is the year when “ish” get's real! (see I can be funny!)

The beginning of the year was a little strange, yet fun! I'm now at this time seeing a “shrink” in which diagnosed me with PTSD (PostTruamatic Stress disorder). (because at the time it was like pulling teeth trying to get me in the car.) and Depression.

For the most I would do my school work, then get back in the bed and not think about anything just try to go to sleep.

For about 4-6 months that's how my life was. I didn't really have a great relationship with someone (too personal) because they seemed like they didn't understand who I was at this point. I would have walk in front of a moving train if there were any around. It was that bad. So for the most part I would just go to sleep most of the time. I was miserable. In that time I developed bi polar disorder and an eating disorder (before all of this craziness I would eat very little and exercise a lot. To the point where I would get sick.)

This is the point where things change a for the better.

Around the third week of August, My mom was trying to find away for me to get out of the house and be around people.

My family and I have been going to this church for about 5 years (well just my siblings and my mother.) but I never went to the youth classes. (Too scared)

So nervous and all, I go. Best thing that's ever happened to me. That night, there was something special going on just for women at some hotel. So the church was pretty empty! It was just the youth pastor and some other kids. They were having a movie night instead of a church service (don't really remember the movie so...)

When the movie was over my mom picked me and my sister up she came with me.

That night I felt happier than ever! For two reasons!

1: I had a lot of fun

2: I met someone cool! (turns out the guy was a douche.)

I'm going to skip some of the story ( just because I don't want to relive that horrible friendship I had.)

Around Christmas time life was so good! I had real friends, the leaders were awesome and I had no depression what so ever! my anxiety even went down! Everything was sooo good! Until food started to bother me.

Around the time of November and December I thought I had Celiac Disease.

Once I started the gluten free diet, I was ok for a while and I thought that was it. So my life started to be great again!

Four months later I by some coffee from my local coffee shop. I was getting ready to start a new volunteer job at my church! While I'm getting ready for my new job, I get this weird feeling in my stomach. I start thinking “Did I have something with gluten in it? What the hell is going on?!?!

What I did next was just so generous! I decide to ignore it and get ready for the job. (so smart)

While I'm in the bathroom I get this weird urge to throw-up (which I did.)

It was horrible, all through the night I was sick.

About two months later, I have to get two blood tests. One for Celiac and one for Crohn's. About four days later, I get the results. Negative for Celiac and positive for Crohn's disease.

I'm at this point angry and I feel so defeated. I'm angry at God thinking why and how could you let this happen?!

That night I prayed so hard and I the last thing I remember saying to God in tears was “ Please don't let me die!”

My life felt like a downward spiral once more. But this time, it's not as bad, because I was surrounded by people who really cared about me. For the first time I actually felt really loved from people other than my family!

In the month of June I go in for my very first Endoscopy and Colonoscopy. (celebrate go times.)

The week after, I graduated from High School! (praise the Lord I got out of that hell hole.)

The next week after that was when I got the results from both procedures!

My Doctor told me I have absolutely NO CROHN'S DISEASE!!

Turns out it was just gastritis and ulcers.

I told everybody I knew! I was so happy! The doctor put me omeprazole, and it started working withing a week!

Over joyed with happiness, I ate everything!! Then stuff started not to work so well.

After the follow up I had with my Doctor, She doubled the dosage from 20mg to 40mg. It still didn't work.

After I was put on about two different other medications I was just about fed up!!

In the mean time, I'm having crazy acid reflux, and one my guy friends is accusing me of horrible things. It was a crazy time.

Within the next two weeks, he leave for good! (he moves away) out of sight, out of mind. I didn't need people like him in my life.

This is where life get's so much better!

About three weeks ago, my mother and I go the this vitamin store to get the natural sweetener called stevia. And while we're there, we see the girl with her mom buying supplements for her digestion.

I ask the sales woman what exactly did she give that girl? And she told me Multi Enzymes, DgL, licorice and activated Charcoal . I'm slightly apprehensive about these supplements because I've never used them before. So before I buy them, I go home and do some research on them. Turns out that's what my body needed all along!

The next weekend I go back to the vitamin Store, and buy the supplements. (except the Activated Charcoal because it such up everything in you stomach including a p.p.i.)

That day, was the first day I was able to eat real food! I took the DgL licorice first and it worked within 15-30 minutes for me! And the Multi Enzymes work the next day!

I had no problems for a while! The only time I say I have is if I eat something wrong (let's say pizza) that's when I'll get a little indigestion but nothing serious.

Now My life is so much better! I'm dancing again, I'm eating again, and my faith is stronger than ever! I'm now looking forward to what God has in store for my life.

Remember everyone, “there is no testimony without a test.)

God's not finished with me, not even close, but along the way I'm going to tell my story and help people with it.

...The story doesn't stop here......

PART THREE OF MY STORY TOMORROW.

My story pt.1

My life from four years ago to 2013

   For years all I wanted to be was a dancer. After school, I would practice for hours and hours on end. It was hard work but I still enjoyed every minute of it. (so I thought.)

   One day, I looked in the mirror and absolutely did not like what I saw. I thought I was too big to be a dancer, (which is a horrible thought because no matter what size you are if you love dancing then that is what your are.. a dancer!) I became so terrified at what I thought others would think or say about me. (which is stupid!)

  The next time I go to dance practice, I try to get the mean thoughts about my self out of my head and try to focus in class. It's cross the floor time and I'm about to do a “grand jete” (for some people who don't know what that is, it's sort of like a leap across the floor.) that was the day I tore my Hamstring and lost all self confidence.

   The Year 2011, I feel healthy enough to go back to dance class. just for fun this time. I was super competitive and I wasn't even competing in any big competitions.

   On my way back to class, that cold Wednesday night, I get this weird feeling in my head. I just brush it off like it was nothing and continue doing whatever I was doing I don't remember. Then, I feel it again. This time I know something wrong! My heart starts pounding like a drummer in a rock band in my chest! My body is cold, my head is spinning, I can't breath. Then all of a sudden, I pass out in the back seat of my mom's car.

  When I open my eyes, I'm still in the car, still feeling as crazy as ever!

   Finally my mom pulls into a target parking lot and calls 9.1.1

When the paramedics arrive they asked me all these questions: name, birthday. Phone number etc.

   They knew exactly what had happened. I had a panic attack!!

   At the time I had no idea what a panic attack was, let alone that I had anxiety! That was the first time anything like that had ever happened to me. I thought I was having a heart attack! It was all so scary.

   The next week I'm still dealing with these crazy anxiety attacks. They weren't as bad as they were the first time but they were still very strong.

   From that point on, dancing was never the same. I felt like my purpose in life was shattered, I couldn't pay attention in class anymore (seriously, when ever the choreographer was talking she would start to sound like the teacher in those charlie brown cartoons.) I got to the point where my life was a downward spiral and I needed a break so I stopped everything until year 2012.